DARK SECRET

A dark secret I keep to myself for 7 years.

A secret I wish no one could hear.

But it is hard for me to keep by myself.

For 7 years I hold it and enough is enough.

In those dark times, I can feel the heavy burden.

A burden that I took with no reason,

It is my responsibility to my family.

Just to make sure that they will always happy.

All of my problems always pull me down.

A dark secret that sure to make me drown,

These problems make me lose a lot of friends which I love,

And not to forget a special person that I love.

People around me don’t believe all of my problems.

It is never in my thoughts that I would blame them.

For them, it is too young for me to face it and try.

For 7 years I face and that is a fact I couldn’t lie.

I sacrifice a lot to help my family.

It is my pride and not to forget my dignity.

When I sit alone and thinking, tears just fell.

I’m not strong enough to tell.

Just a little bit of my dark secret that I hold.

A secret that I would like to fold,

I tried so hard to explain and it is like drowning in the sand.

I won’t try harder because I know people won’t understand.

-M.S-

cont.. (STORY OF MY LIFE)

I’ve been ups and downs through my working days.

To help my family is my main priority I would say.

Solve my own problems in my own very way.

I still kept smiling in every single day.

Receive an offer to further my studies.

When to Kedah and left my buddies.

I went there to pursue my dream to become an Engineer.

Get well motivated and overcome my fear.

I took the challenge to enter foundation.

I never doubt of making this decision.

To become an engineer it is just an inception.

I still believe that I can conquer the profession.

After foundation, a lot of problems that I face.

Financial problems are one of the phases.

My vision suddenly turns into a haze.

Only god knows my life is just like a maze.

During my fall times, a lot of people helped.

I never forget them because I’m in their debts.

Everyone look down on me and I know I’m poor.

But when they cry for help, I’m there for sure.

Day and night I am struggling with my life.

I’m just like a bee without a hive.

I really need oxygen to revive.

Just want to take all of my problems and just dive.

A lot of family problems and I can’t study.

I’m taking degree now is it risky?

Final exam is just around the corner and am I ready?

I really need something to become really steady.

I met a few friends that I’m proud to call brothers already.

P, A, K, and N do really make me more lively.

Quite a long time I didn’t taste the feel of a family.

Their presence really makes me happy.

This story started from the day I was born until now.

There’s a full stop in everything and I would like to take a bow.

In the age of 19 I carried a lot of responsibility.

Maybe that is just one of my special ability.

My shoulder is heavy with people and my own burden.

I still carry it without asking in return.

Honest to say I’m not an ordinary 19 year old.

Reason for that is because I have great heart, mind and soul.

This is all from my personal experience that I gain.

Started through love, happy, sad, pain and vain.

This is the journey that I survive.

I’m R.R and this is the story of my life.

-M.S-