CRITICAL MOMENT

It is matter of time for me to know the result.

It is very hard for me to receive an insult.

I really have no one to consult.

It has always been my fault.

To manage things now is really hard for me.

To fake a smile every day I can be.

The happiness in my life just fades away.

Just to think how to survive another day.

My family is falling apart.

My hands are frozen and I just stood by.

I have lost my heart.

Should I care? Why should i?

I’m not strong enough for all this.

Tomorrow is just a gift from Allah for me to strive.

Counting days is my own way to find peace.

Every minute I’m trying to survive.

Things are getting worse and way out of my hand.

I don’t know how much time I could stand.

I am just trying to find the perfect land.

For all this to just ends.

Now is just matter of time and there I stand.

Support from my love ones, I would like to see.

And there she appear and lend me a helping hand.

Although I thought she’s the last person to help me.

I need strength in order to succeed.

I also need a plan in order to proceed.

I need answers for all this.

God please help me, please.

I will always have faith in my intuition.

I will also have faith in all of my decisions.

I need to be strong to survive.

And I know I should strive.

-M.S-

PAIN, PAIN AND PAIN

Meningitis, viral and bacterial meningitis is one kind of rare disease.

And it is definitely not as same as bronchitis.

Infection of the fluid that surrounds the brain,

No wonder I always felt the pain.

It is still very hard to understand the disease terms.

One thing for sure I have the symptoms.

Although Dr. said that I am only in the early stage.

Whatever it is prevention had to be made.

Back pain, nausea and high fever are just like ever.

The pain I suffers is just like forever.

A secret I kept to the people around me.

Just to make sure that they won’t worry.

I had to be strong and I know I’m not weak.

Dr. gave me a number of antibiotics.

Treatments of vaccines just to keep me survive.

I know and I believe I should strive.

Now I feel less pain than before.

I just feel that I’m opening a new door.

A door that will lead me to a better life.

Thank God that I survive.

:’)

- M.S -

cont.. (STORY OF MY LIFE)

I’ve been ups and downs through my working days.

To help my family is my main priority I would say.

Solve my own problems in my own very way.

I still kept smiling in every single day.

Receive an offer to further my studies.

When to Kedah and left my buddies.

I went there to pursue my dream to become an Engineer.

Get well motivated and overcome my fear.

I took the challenge to enter foundation.

I never doubt of making this decision.

To become an engineer it is just an inception.

I still believe that I can conquer the profession.

After foundation, a lot of problems that I face.

Financial problems are one of the phases.

My vision suddenly turns into a haze.

Only god knows my life is just like a maze.

During my fall times, a lot of people helped.

I never forget them because I’m in their debts.

Everyone look down on me and I know I’m poor.

But when they cry for help, I’m there for sure.

Day and night I am struggling with my life.

I’m just like a bee without a hive.

I really need oxygen to revive.

Just want to take all of my problems and just dive.

A lot of family problems and I can’t study.

I’m taking degree now is it risky?

Final exam is just around the corner and am I ready?

I really need something to become really steady.

I met a few friends that I’m proud to call brothers already.

P, A, K, and N do really make me more lively.

Quite a long time I didn’t taste the feel of a family.

Their presence really makes me happy.

This story started from the day I was born until now.

There’s a full stop in everything and I would like to take a bow.

In the age of 19 I carried a lot of responsibility.

Maybe that is just one of my special ability.

My shoulder is heavy with people and my own burden.

I still carry it without asking in return.

Honest to say I’m not an ordinary 19 year old.

Reason for that is because I have great heart, mind and soul.

This is all from my personal experience that I gain.

Started through love, happy, sad, pain and vain.

This is the journey that I survive.

I’m R.R and this is the story of my life.

-M.S-