CURSE OF FRIENDSHIP

Day by day past away

Not getting better I would say

As time slowly goes by

Everything seems to be a lie.

It’s hard to define my feelings

Inside my heart is loudly screaming

I won’t and never question why

Because a part of me had die

Insecure, depression, aggression,

Contain them through my passion

Another knock by the door,

Seriously, I can’t take this anymore.

Slowly I’ve tried to understand this

But certain things that I can’t release

Hide my feelings to satisfy others

Because I treated them like my brothers

When things suddenly gets worst

All I expect is the support from others

A knife in the back really kills

Rather commit suicide with some pills

To bear the thought of getting stab in the back

Never occur my brothers would do that

I've trusted them with my full heart

After all we've been through, this is what I get.

Music calms me down lately

To contain my emotions that is very deadly

Isolate my emotions and feelings aside

In order to have respect and keep my pride

It really hurts when the closest person stabs you

But that is life and still has to continue

I've accept the things that he has done

Hide my feelings until it’s gone

The thing I learn in life is to have respect

In friendship, have respect and no regret

That is what makes the relationship happy

Never spoil it with the presence of a third party

It is not the first time you've done that to me

Don’t spoil our relationship in this way that I see

Maybe you would say it’s very stupid to think that way

Think back; think hard or I’ll walk away

Try to think straight and move on

But I can’t because I’m worried about our bond

Never break our bonding with a third party

You’ll regret it and won’t be happy

In time, I need some time alone

I’ll be away and you won’t notice I’m gone

Seriously, I’m sad it turns out this way

Forgive me that I have to walk away

Loneliness is a curse for me

Nevertheless I’m trying to find who I would be

In God I would seek my inner peace

Until all of my stress are released

I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed

Just because of your attitude that you have pointed

Don’t care to ask or apologize to me

Because forgiveness it’s not from me but from you it will be

The point is that I really need my inner peace

I thought you can help me at least

I was wrong and expect to high

And now my feelings just die

In stress and depression I hide myself

The only thing I've felt is pain

But one thing for sure to remind myself

There’s always rainbow after the heavy rain

-M.S-